my shadows too

I’m wondering about all of my shadows

Like when I’m
Aloof
Removed
Self-conscious
Self-doubting
Judgmental
Heart closed

Is that part of what a shadow is?
The places where our hearts close?

Krishna told me to keep looking for the seed,
The underlying roots of every situation – not just the surface issues

And when I walk that spiral path back to the seed
I usually find love
Where I’m hurt
I find love
Where I’m angry
Often love
Where I’m confused

I think my pregnancy hormones
Are telling me something
About love
About shadows
About the sides of my heart softening
And finding so much more compassion
For the parts I don’t want people to see