your destiny is here

Bury me down deep
Where only one dusty ray of sun
Hits my gnarled eyes
Bite open an apple
Swallow half whole
And vomit up the world
Why is the water so calm?
How do the birds listen?

When I blinked this morning
I saw myself vomit up the universe
I am a cave hermit
A scarlet letter
And every archetype unknown
Did I choose this life?
Did I chose the abuse?
When will I stop beating up on
myself my
breath my
skin my
body my
habits my
thoughts?
Fountains of lava
Rush to the sea
Cool me, please
Words and words and words
Stored in my heart
Stuck in my throat
Where is my affirmation?
How do I clear this murky pool?

I’m tired
I’m weak
I’m weary
Why?
He hurt me
Why?
I don’t know
I’m so mad
Is the anger exhausting?
YES
Just rest, baby girl
Rest when you need to
Your destiny is here