My Journal
Writing is an important way for me to process my feelings, questions, confusions, and experiences.
CW: some journal entries are about traumatic experiences
Aminatou Sow
“We are living in tumultuous times y'all. Love is still transformative and restorative.”
"We are living in tumultuous times y'all. Love is still transformative and restorative."
Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie
"Anger has a long history of bringing about positive change."
"Anger has a long history of bringing about positive change."
your destiny is here
Bury me down deep
Where only one dusty ray of sun
Bury me down deep
Where only one dusty ray of sun
Hits my gnarled eyes
Bite open an apple
Swallow half whole
And vomit up the world
Why is the water so calm?
How do the birds listen?
When I blinked this morning
I saw myself vomit up the universe
I am a cave hermit
A scarlet letter
And every archetype unknown
Did I choose this life?
Did I chose the abuse?
When will I stop beating up on
myself my
breath my
skin my
body my
habits my
thoughts?
Fountains of lava
Rush to the sea
Cool me, please
Words and words and words
Stored in my heart
Stuck in my throat
Where is my affirmation?
How do I clear this murky pool?
I’m tired
I’m weak
I’m weary
Why?
He hurt me
Why?
I don’t know
I’m so mad
Is the anger exhausting?
YES
Just rest, baby girl
Rest when you need to
Your destiny is here
yesterday i remembered
that 70 percent of our earth
is ocean
i felt better
that 70 percent of our earth
is ocean
i felt better
india.arie
"I am not the things my family did
I am not the voices in my head”
"I am not the things my family did
I am not the voices in my head
I am not the pieces of the brokenness inside
I am light"
support?
I think that deep down, my family supports me for telling the truth about what happened.
I think that deep down, my family supports me for telling the truth about what happened.
But I also think that sometimes my truth makes them mad, threatens them, and makes them resent me.
Because sometimes it's annoying (or maddening) to hear someone tell the truth. Sometimes a down quilt of quiet feels much better than a cold shower of honesty.
But I don't have time to protect anyone's feelings, especially since no one protected mine while I was being abused.
I can't pause or slow my own healing because it's hard for other people to know about.
I think the best thing I can do, right now, is treat myself and everyone else with love, care, and respect. And keep telling the truth, sometimes boldly, sometimes gently, but always the truth.
Always the truth.
julia cameron
"Growth is a spiral process, doubling back on itself, reassessing and regrouping…
"Growth is a spiral process, doubling back on itself, reassessing and regrouping… While the occasional dazzling vista may grace us, it is really best to proceed a step at a time, focusing on the path beneath our feet as much as the heights still before us.”